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| AidynElyMama wrote: | Yes I did see a naturopath.
So I'm intolerant to potato, and I can't eat fruits and grains within 6 hours of each other. I've quit eating grain altogether as so much of our food has fruit hidden in it and I'd rather do away with grain than try to keep myself on the 6 hour schedule. Now this didn't give me any problems I noticed before kids, but basically having two kids close together at a young age put a stress on my body (namely my adrenal glands). So my body was run down, and then I was eating these foods I shouldn't and the problems started. When I delivered DD I weighed 182 pounds. Within 3 months I was back to 130, and by the time she was 10 months, I weighed 105. The naturopath's hypothesis is that because my body was trying to digest the food it couldn't, stuff built up and prevented me from totally digesting all the nutrients I needed...therefore causing the extreme weight loss. I see pictures of myself from a few months ago, with my bones sticking out, and think...oh, wow.
So then I quit eating the bad stuff, and within two months I'd put on 12 pounds. I used to eat cookies, fast food, sugar, chocolate - I ate whatever I wanted and never gained a pound, lost them actually. Now I eat nothing but fruits, vegetables, poultry, nuts...no sugar, grains or any kind of processed food...and I've gained weight. It's really screwing with my body image. I was crying the other night to DH, saying I just wanted to start eating junk food again so I could be "skinny" again...and when he looked at me and said, Tawny, you weigh 116 pounds. My sister in HS weighs that much, I realized I have a problem now and that's kind of where this thread came from.
Sorry, I'm sure that's a lot more than you asked for, I'm feeling very emotional about this right now and I know my perception is very skewed and some people probably want to beat me right now for complaining when I really shouldn't be, but I'm hoping this thread will help me get into shape and stop paying attention to the numbers and just focus on feeling and looking healthy. |
Oh Tawny,... Having a skewed body image is hard at any weight. Far to long I have told myself that people should love me no matter my size,.. and well, so they should but, I need to LOVE me and take CARE of me. If you feel like crap in the morning and every part of you hurts from the extra weight you are not ment to carry it is a hard burden to carry especially knowing you have done it to yourself. When your ill and your weight keeps you from having baby's,.. it's a hard reality check... I'm not familiar with the other end of the spectrum but, I can only imagine it is just as hard and I would never once doubt that. We ALL need to feel better about ourselves and get there in a healthy manner. Wether we gain, lose, tone and tighten,... we just need better then we already are.
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Oh Tawny,... Having a skewed body image is hard at any weight. Far to long I have told myself that people should love me no matter my size,.. and well, so they should but, I need to LOVE me and take CARE of me. If you feel like crap in the morning and every part of you hurts from the extra weight you are not ment to carry it is a hard burden to carry especially knowing you have done it to yourself. When your ill and your weight keeps you from having baby's,.. it's a hard reality check... I'm not familiar with the other end of the spectrum but, I can only imagine it is just as hard and I would never once doubt that. We ALL need to feel better about ourselves and get there in a healthy manner. Wether we gain, lose, tone and tighten,... we just need better then we already are. |
And now I'm wanting to cry reading that. I don't know why this is hitting me so hard tonight, maybe it's stepping up to the plate and being ready to do something about it, but for some reason I'm really emotional about this right now.
I think I need to go and delete all my numbers and just put that I want to love the way I look, not because a scale or measuring tape says that I should, but because I look in the mirror and think yes, this is good.
 Melanie, I don't know about that other end either (and I can't imagine how hard it must be), but how about we try to meet somewhere in the middle.
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| AidynElyMama wrote: |
I think I need to go and delete all my numbers and just put that I want to love the way I look, not because a scale or measuring tape says that I should, but because I look in the mirror and think yes, this is good.
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That's about what I'm after.
I don't want to be a size 6. I want to be a size 14, and shop in the "normal" section of the store.
I don't want to be a triathlete. I do want to run & play with the kids without getting winded after a few minutes.
I don't want to be an international sex symbol. I do want to feel good about myself in all kinds of situations.
Lately, I'd say the last ten pounds overweight, I feel SO much fatter than ever. I am very conscious, for instance, of the fat on my neck, and how there is simply no way anymore to position my head or "suck it in" that disguises that fact. Ugh.
I did put some numbers in my OP ... my amount overweight, and my long-term (six month) goal ... but my "real" goals are not numbers at all. They're experiences that I have, that I don't want to anymore, and experiences that I wish I could have again.
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| AidynElyMama wrote: | | Babycakies wrote: |
Oh Tawny,... Having a skewed body image is hard at any weight. Far to long I have told myself that people should love me no matter my size,.. and well, so they should but, I need to LOVE me and take CARE of me. If you feel like crap in the morning and every part of you hurts from the extra weight you are not ment to carry it is a hard burden to carry especially knowing you have done it to yourself. When your ill and your weight keeps you from having baby's,.. it's a hard reality check... I'm not familiar with the other end of the spectrum but, I can only imagine it is just as hard and I would never once doubt that. We ALL need to feel better about ourselves and get there in a healthy manner. Wether we gain, lose, tone and tighten,... we just need better then we already are. |
And now I'm wanting to cry reading that. I don't know why this is hitting me so hard tonight, maybe it's stepping up to the plate and being ready to do something about it, but for some reason I'm really emotional about this right now.
I think I need to go and delete all my numbers and just put that I want to love the way I look, not because a scale or measuring tape says that I should, but because I look in the mirror and think yes, this is good.
Melanie, I don't know about that other end either (and I can't imagine how hard it must be), but how about we try to meet somewhere in the middle. |
Sounds like a plan Hun! and on that note,.. i best put on a jacket and take my butts for a walk,.. LOL
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| Posted: Thu Jul 09, 2009 9:04 pm Post subject: |
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| Cheryl wrote: | | AidynElyMama wrote: |
I think I need to go and delete all my numbers and just put that I want to love the way I look, not because a scale or measuring tape says that I should, but because I look in the mirror and think yes, this is good.
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That's about what I'm after.
I don't want to be a size 6. I want to be a size 14, and shop in the "normal" section of the store.
I don't want to be a triathlete. I do want to run & play with the kids without getting winded after a few minutes.
I don't want to be an international sex symbol. I do want to feel good about myself in all kinds of situations.
Lately, I'd say the last ten pounds overweight, I feel SO much fatter than ever. I am very conscious, for instance, of the fat on my neck, and how there is simply no way anymore to position my head or "suck it in" that disguises that fact. Ugh.
I did put some numbers in my OP ... my amount overweight, and my long-term (six month) goal ... but my "real" goals are not numbers at all. They're experiences that I have, that I don't want to anymore, and experiences that I wish I could have again. |
I like it Cheryl. I love it actually.
After I do a little work out here with my DH, I'm going to update my original post!
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| Babycakies wrote: | | AidynElyMama wrote: | | Babycakies wrote: |
Oh Tawny,... Having a skewed body image is hard at any weight. Far to long I have told myself that people should love me no matter my size,.. and well, so they should but, I need to LOVE me and take CARE of me. If you feel like crap in the morning and every part of you hurts from the extra weight you are not ment to carry it is a hard burden to carry especially knowing you have done it to yourself. When your ill and your weight keeps you from having baby's,.. it's a hard reality check... I'm not familiar with the other end of the spectrum but, I can only imagine it is just as hard and I would never once doubt that. We ALL need to feel better about ourselves and get there in a healthy manner. Wether we gain, lose, tone and tighten,... we just need better then we already are. |
And now I'm wanting to cry reading that. I don't know why this is hitting me so hard tonight, maybe it's stepping up to the plate and being ready to do something about it, but for some reason I'm really emotional about this right now.
I think I need to go and delete all my numbers and just put that I want to love the way I look, not because a scale or measuring tape says that I should, but because I look in the mirror and think yes, this is good.
Melanie, I don't know about that other end either (and I can't imagine how hard it must be), but how about we try to meet somewhere in the middle. |
Sounds like a plan Hun! and on that note,.. i best put on a jacket and take my butts for a walk,.. LOL |
Enjoy your walk!
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Okay, did just over half hour tonight, a mix of leg exercises and cardio (I danced like a mad woman around my living room!). Day number one down!
Anyone else do anything tonight?
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| AidynElyMama wrote: | Okay, did just over half hour tonight, a mix of leg exercises and cardio (I danced like a mad woman around my living room!). Day number one down!
Anyone else do anything tonight? |
I didn't get my walk in but, I skipped that snakc I thought I wawnted and grabbed the water bottle instead.... I'm on my 2nd refill of my 20oz reduce bottle and I am doing laundry ( lots of bending, picking up sorting), I have a sweat going. Tomorrow I will head to town and try to avoid all the sweets in the bakery and get a walkin and take the kids to the beach.
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| AidynElyMama wrote: | Okay, did just over half hour tonight, a mix of leg exercises and cardio (I danced like a mad woman around my living room!). Day number one down!
Anyone else do anything tonight? |
That sounds fun & freeing Tawny!
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I didn't get my walk in but, I skipped that snakc I thought I wawnted and grabbed the water bottle instead.... |
I read this without "water" ... figured all this dieting talk made you hit the booze. lol.
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| AidynElyMama wrote: | | chatongris wrote: | i want to join, but i have to wait to w/o until after i recover from my upcoming surgery.
but here are my goals:
current weight - 122lbs, dont really care if i go up, just dont want to loose more.
34in around biggest part of belly, goal - would like to be 32in around biggest part of belly
i dont work out at all. i'd like to start pilates atleast 3xs a week and focus on toning up all my flab. i may be thin, but its not muscle |
I totally get that, I'm the same way. And really, I don't think I'd mind being the weight I am if I knew it was muscle and not jiggly flab. Measurements are a good idea, I think I'll include that in my post, that would be a very visible means of watching the toning. |
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((hugs)) tawny, just read the rest of your posts.....we are actually quite alike, i know how hard it is to be a balanced idea of what we are supposed to look like.
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| Cheryl wrote: | | Babycakies wrote: |
I didn't get my walk in but, I skipped that snakc I thought I wawnted and grabbed the water bottle instead.... |
I read this without "water" ... figured all this dieting talk made you hit the booze. lol. |
Not a bad idea but, did you see my title,.... Gonna be a whole lot of nekid flub running around if I do that.... Oh, there is a goal,... I would love to be confortable enough to cut loose and drink rum without being self conscience or scarring to others eyes. LMAO
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| Posted: Fri Jul 10, 2009 9:08 am Post subject: |
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| chatongris wrote: | | AidynElyMama wrote: | | chatongris wrote: | i want to join, but i have to wait to w/o until after i recover from my upcoming surgery.
but here are my goals:
current weight - 122lbs, dont really care if i go up, just dont want to loose more.
34in around biggest part of belly, goal - would like to be 32in around biggest part of belly
i dont work out at all. i'd like to start pilates atleast 3xs a week and focus on toning up all my flab. i may be thin, but its not muscle |
I totally get that, I'm the same way. And really, I don't think I'd mind being the weight I am if I knew it was muscle and not jiggly flab. Measurements are a good idea, I think I'll include that in my post, that would be a very visible means of watching the toning. |
flabby beanpoles unite! |
Where's a flabby beanpole smiley when you need it? In my head it's a skinny little smiley standing there and smiling, then screaming in horror when it catches sight of itself naked.
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| Babycakies wrote: | | Cheryl wrote: | | Babycakies wrote: |
I didn't get my walk in but, I skipped that snakc I thought I wawnted and grabbed the water bottle instead.... |
I read this without "water" ... figured all this dieting talk made you hit the booze. lol. |
Not a bad idea but, did you see my title,.... Gonna be a whole lot of nekid flub running around if I do that.... Oh, there is a goal,... I would love to be confortable enough to cut loose and drink rum without being self conscience or scarring to others eyes. LMAO |
Now there's a weight loss goal you don't hear very often......
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