I am not hiding....

[oneblestmama]

Just changed my name. Niftymom had to go because I real feel like I need to start over. I am at a really hard spot in my life right now. I do not like being in my 30s, I will not have any more children, which kills me, and my one year old is done nursing for reasons beyond my control that still piss me off, and I am overweight. Like obese overweight and I am ashamed of myself.

I am trying really hard to take a step back and realize that I have so many blessings in my life, but some days, it is more than I can bear, and I want to run away. It is all I can do to keep going. I feel like I am trapped. There are three small people that need me and are dependant on me and I would not want my life to change for anything, but then I have these awful feelings and I struggle to cope with them.

I am taking antidepressants which have drastically helped my moods and I can control them a whole lot better than before, but when I have a bad day, I really have a bad day.

Thanks for listening.
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Erica
One husband, 3 kids, two spoiled dogs.

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Michele

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[JBTreasures]

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[pumpkinpiebaby]

Hugs to you! It's so hard to take care of yourself when you have 3 little ones to care for. I hope you can get the help you need to pull through this.

[asteiner18]

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[jwpsgurl]

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[JenniferRN]

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[WWBathCo]

I'm so sorry that you're dealing with depression! I've been on anxiety/depression meds for over a year. It is a viscious disease! PM me if you ever want to talk or just vent! Sending a great big hug!
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Necia, happily married to DH, mom to 3yr old DS and 2yr old DD.

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[malawyer]

Mama I'm crying for you. I know what you mean I am so there. I am preg with our last and how bitter it is for me, my health has been failing me big time and I don't like my 30's either. I'm so sorry that you are going through this.
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Melissa~ Wife to King Arthur, Queen of my Home, Knitter, Homeschooler, SAHM, Somewhat WAHM (if you count ebay) and mom to 7 great kiddos!!!
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[Kristina93]

I wish i could reach through the computer and give you a big 'ol hug!!
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[nebwhit]

Hugs. Life can be so hard and it is hard to see the blessings we have. Hope tomorrow is a better day
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Kristina, wife to Ben, homeschooling, SAHM to 5 beautiful kids.

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[cartermomof4]

I FEEL LIKE I JUST READ MY OWN POST! Hang in there I pray everyday I can drag myself to change my life drastically. For my own good and health. I am so overweight I want to cry everyday when I get dressed. We should start some support group thread even if just to bitch every day in it,lol. Maybe we could kick our own butts into shape. And rely less on our familes to make us happy! Unfortunatly meds did not work for me, they made me care NOTHING about my surroundings or what my children were doing. It was scarey so I just deal. Good luck chicka you are NOT alone =0
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[oneblestmama]

This is just the hug I needed. I know it is awful that we feel this way, but I am relieved to know that I am not alone in this thinking. I have to stop dwelling on the used to coulds and move forward on the present and the future.

I am using myplate to track what I am eating and it is tracking my weight. It is on livestrong.com, or something like that. If you google it, it comes right up. It is a very cool website and I am hoping I can stick with it. It is very important to me to get healthy and have a great self image because I do not want my daughter to have the same struggles I do. It scares me.

My husband had a vasectomy while I was pregnat with our last baby. I really go back and forth but I know I want another because my heart aches. I have to learn how to cope with that, but deep down I hope that maybe his vasectomy was bothced and we would have a big "oops." Realistically I know that it is highly unlikely that something like this would happen. I did not mind getting up with a newborn and all of the things that go with it. I know how fast they grow up. I blinked and my daughter is not a baby anymore. She is a beautiful little girl, and I just want time to slow down.
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Erica
One husband, 3 kids, two spoiled dogs.